Hmmm. I feel like I've overposted for the day. But remember, this isn't for you. I'm just letting you read it. XP :] I'm vommenting.
Why do humans thrive on connection? Basically, it's because of the way we were created. God gave Eve to Adam so he could have a companion. Right?
But what happens when your companions aren't really friends?
I once had a very profound, I guess, dream. Maybe impactful is a better word, but still. The weird thing is that even though this dream involves a certain pair of people, it could apply in so many different cases! WOW! Anyway, someone I considered one of my best friends had a crush (Wow. Crush? Haha, that's so grade school to say...), err, "feelings" for another of my best friends, whom I also shared these feelings for. I dreamt that my male friend and I were romantically linked, and we doubled (double dated, that is) with my female friend that used to have the feelings and her new boyfriend, whom she had even stronger feelings for. Everyone was satisfied. Later that week (this is where the dream switches to real life), my female and male friend began to date. Boy, was I angry. Later, probably during the weekend, I dreamt that they were dating, and I was alone (still), crying and depressed. I won't bore you with the details of that dream, but it ended with me dead, and a knife in my back. Mhm.
Of course I've let go of these horrendous grudges that stung, but really didn't last, but it still hurt to know that good friends would do anything for a boyfriend.
I've been wronged so many times before, like those on top do. When you're on top, you don't end up with many people befriending you. It hurts. None of your friendly deeds are reciprocated in any way. People are otherwise preoccupied, and when you've got such an eccentric brain like mine, you'd want someone to listen to you, correct? I don't think I've got that. I realize that this friendship post is unbearably grim, but you wouldn't have seen it unless you were inside my head. I'm pretty sure you're not there. (Well, maybe one of you is... Haha. Viet. Nevermind. Anyway...)
I'll either update this or post a sequel (and maybe even a prequel of the happy times), but for now, since I've gotta go wash dishes (Poo.) and I've got more to spill (yeah, I didn't want to write about this for like 7 hours. That's lame. And you'd never finish reading this. Ha.), I'm going to close with something a now very distant friend (this story will probably go in the sequel about the selfish friend who doesn't listen to anyone but herself) sent me last night.
7 Truths
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will.
You'll have your heart broken, probably more than once. And it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours.
You'll fight with your friends and may even fall in love with one of them.
You will blame a new love for the things an old one did. You'll cry because time's passing too fast, I know I have, and you'll eventually lose someone close to you.
So take lots of pictures, laugh much, cherish every moment, and love like you've never been hurt.
Because every sixty seconds you spend being angry or upset is minute of happiness you'll never get back... Or so I've learned the hard way."
-Lisa
Why do humans thrive on connection? Basically, it's because of the way we were created. God gave Eve to Adam so he could have a companion. Right?
But what happens when your companions aren't really friends?
I once had a very profound, I guess, dream. Maybe impactful is a better word, but still. The weird thing is that even though this dream involves a certain pair of people, it could apply in so many different cases! WOW! Anyway, someone I considered one of my best friends had a crush (Wow. Crush? Haha, that's so grade school to say...), err, "feelings" for another of my best friends, whom I also shared these feelings for. I dreamt that my male friend and I were romantically linked, and we doubled (double dated, that is) with my female friend that used to have the feelings and her new boyfriend, whom she had even stronger feelings for. Everyone was satisfied. Later that week (this is where the dream switches to real life), my female and male friend began to date. Boy, was I angry. Later, probably during the weekend, I dreamt that they were dating, and I was alone (still), crying and depressed. I won't bore you with the details of that dream, but it ended with me dead, and a knife in my back. Mhm.
Of course I've let go of these horrendous grudges that stung, but really didn't last, but it still hurt to know that good friends would do anything for a boyfriend.
I've been wronged so many times before, like those on top do. When you're on top, you don't end up with many people befriending you. It hurts. None of your friendly deeds are reciprocated in any way. People are otherwise preoccupied, and when you've got such an eccentric brain like mine, you'd want someone to listen to you, correct? I don't think I've got that. I realize that this friendship post is unbearably grim, but you wouldn't have seen it unless you were inside my head. I'm pretty sure you're not there. (Well, maybe one of you is... Haha. Viet. Nevermind. Anyway...)
I'll either update this or post a sequel (and maybe even a prequel of the happy times), but for now, since I've gotta go wash dishes (Poo.) and I've got more to spill (yeah, I didn't want to write about this for like 7 hours. That's lame. And you'd never finish reading this. Ha.), I'm going to close with something a now very distant friend (this story will probably go in the sequel about the selfish friend who doesn't listen to anyone but herself) sent me last night.
7 Truths
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will.
You'll have your heart broken, probably more than once. And it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours.
You'll fight with your friends and may even fall in love with one of them.
You will blame a new love for the things an old one did. You'll cry because time's passing too fast, I know I have, and you'll eventually lose someone close to you.
So take lots of pictures, laugh much, cherish every moment, and love like you've never been hurt.
Because every sixty seconds you spend being angry or upset is minute of happiness you'll never get back... Or so I've learned the hard way."
-Lisa
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