A Year In Review: 2009 - It's Personal.

Can you believe 2009 is almost over? It's MADNESS, I tell you, MADNESS!



What an interesting year it has been. I guess for me, this has been a year that I've spent trying to find myself. Too bad I got even more lost than before... Looking back at the month and eight days I spent being a little fourteen year old, I've actually seen a change in myself. I don't smile as much as I used to; I'm not as studious or social either. I feel as if I've lost all dedication to everything I once loved. So many things have gone wrong in this noggin of mine, and I honestly have no idea what to do anymore. ...And the lethargy and depression set in. I guess that means it's time for resolution number one:

• Take off. You need a mental health day. Please take care of yourself.

I've learned so much about my strength and willpower, so 2009 is also a learning year. I mean, I made it through our marching show! I NEVER in a million years thought that I'd be able to march 180 bpm for 8 minutes. AND PLAY at the same time! On a sprained ankle! Next year is our state year. I'm going to be a leader on that field, no matter what it takes. That brings us to resolution numero dos:

• Get in shape, baby. Those weird spasms at Region meant something.

I have also had my heart broken. Ugh, 2009 is also a year of disappointment. Region Band, boys, grades, friends, my health, parents, you name it, I was disappointed by it. (Or they were disappointed by me, I guess.) People are truly not who you think they are, and it hurts to know sometimes you can't trust even people you consider your best friends. I feel as if I've got no one to confide in anymore. And I also see that my parents are disappointed by me more. (This is where that depression (^^) comes back.) And boys are stupid. They're not worth my time. So number 3 is:

• Pray for better friends. And a peaceful family. And a boyfriend who cares.

Speaking of prayer, this year was one of my best spiritual years yet. Too bad it's diminishing again. I think that says it all. So my final New Year's resolution for 2010 is:

• Stay on the right track. Be more selfless, and keep tithing!

With that being said, Happy New Year, everyone!

Love always,

-Lisa :]